have to make the decision about which direction
your life with take with the life God has given you.
You can choose to be in the world but not of the world
and not let the ways of the world influence your decisions instead of God.
We know that God's plans for us are always going to be better than ours, but we still get frustrated when we make plans we think are good and it all seems to fall apart. The important thing to remember is to not lose faith and continue with what you know to be good and God will fill in the blanks. If you play the "what if" game, all you'll do is get more frustrated and depressed and that only gives Satan a foothold to bring you down more.
Every day we are given here on this earth is another chance to do it right, so I am thankful that God has seen fit to keep giving me second chances. I think it is a reminder that He is in charge and to remind us that He is number one in our lives. I have seen too often what happens if you put your spouse or children or job in front of God's best interests for you, and as the saying goes, "Pride comes before the fall," and the first time you say, "Never, not me," will be the invitation for Satan to see what he can do. God has promised to never leave you or forsake you, but like a good parent, He will let you learn the hard way from your own mistakes.
If you want God to be a part of your life and guide you, you need to make Him a part of it and get His attention daily; the best way - prayer and just talking with Him. I heard over and over as a child in the Catholic church that I was not worthy, but then none of us are because we are sinners. That doesn't mean that God doesn't want a personal relationship directly with me. Why would I pray to a saint, or the Virgin Mary, or a priest -- even though they were chosen or chose to have a different relationship with God, are still only human like me ---when I can go directly to the source? That's like telling my sister to ask my dad if he will go to the movies with me; I can ask him myself a lot easier.
So as we head into spring -- though always summer here! -- try to take a better than Job attitude that regardless of the situation, you will praise Him and wait on Him with patience and anticipation of the great things He has in store for you.